Don’t you just love those moments in life where it is REALLY hard to act like Jesus? I’m talking about those moments where you are in a particular situation, and you are aware of the inward struggle to act Christlike.
I had one of those on Tuesday. It involved talking with a company about a service I was seeking. Why was it an “act-like-Jesus-moment-challenge”? Well… I spent over 5 hours on the phone with them and talked to 14 different people. (The name(s) of the company have been withheld to protect the not so innocent). Yep. Transferred beyond reason… and nobody seemed willing or able to help me resolve the issue, which quite frankly, was an injustice to me.
Every time I was transferred, or cutoff — that happened 3 times — I could feel this bubble of nasty try to push through and explode. Perhaps someone would see the justification in such a reaction too; I mean, it went way beyond ridiculous.
You know, the bottom line is that no one I talked with knew who I was — beyond my name. They didn’t know I am a disciple of Jesus. The reality is that a rant here and there would not have reflected negatively on my witness for Jesus at all, because who would know it?
But you know what occurred to me? That kind of attitude is not truly being a follower of Jesus, because it really doesn’t matter if others know if I am a Christian or not — I simply AM one. Which means, I should seek to act like Jesus not for the sake of my witness of Him, but simply because of who I am in Jesus. Yeah… that rant I so wanted to let fly… it really would have hurt… me.
So, I chewed on my cheek a few times, took some deep breaths, said several one liner prayers, and did my best to act like Jesus — whether anyone else would know it or not. Oswald Chambers once wrote, “My worth to God in public is what I am in private.” I like that. Do I always get it right? No, I sure don’t. But I want to! “Lord, keep growing me to be more like You in private, so that I am worth much to You in public.”